Amazing Love

I’m titling this first post, Amazing Love. If this was myspace, I would attach the song Noel by Chris Tomlin feat. Lauren Daigle, to this post. But since I can’t, you’re gunna have to trust me and go listen to it. Turn it up and close your eyes. With Christmas upon us I want to start with the most foundational piece of my stability and comfort. Where does strength come from as you step into the darkness of a scary time? It comes from the Savior, Jesus Christ.

“Noel, Noel

Come and see what God has done

Noel, Noel

The story of amazing love

The light of the world given for us

Noel

Noel.”

Many of my memories with Mac are vivid but one that I continue to remember and rely on was in those first few days of fighting Acute Myeloid Leukemia. He was an 8 month old baby and 91% of the cells in his bone marrow were cancer. He was sick and lifeless. I sat in his dark hospital room and rocked him in a chair, feeling so helpless. Amidst my helplessness there was peace. I knew with certainty that the Savior Jesus Christ knew everything that Mac was experiencing perfectly. I rocked him whispered in his ear that he was loved and that He could rely on the strength and comfort of the Savior. Alma 7:12 says, “And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.” Mac wasn’t old enough to verbally express his pain so that we could comfort him. Our Savior already experienced everything for him. Even now it’s hard to know how a 5 year old feels from taking chemo. Knowing that the Savior can comfort him and lift him up brings me so much peace. The light of the world was given for us. He can calm our storms and that doesn’t always mean take them away. It means that he can calm our troubled souls. He is always there.

Here is a talk by Howard W. Hunter titled Master the Tempest is Raging that is a must read

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1984/10/master-the-tempest-is-raging?lang=eng